Thanks for writing in with your question. I’m sorry for your loss. You’ve been through some major changes in a short amount of time so chances are that they are catching up to you. Grief can mimic clinical depression and cause all the symptoms you mention. The fact that you didn’t adjust well to your travels abroad and felt lonely and isolated may have set the stage for a difficult adjustment coming back home too. Grief is a normal response to loss and change and usually gets better with time, but it is important to allow yourself to feel your feelings, even the sad ones.
Even though you don’t “feel like yourself” and don’t have as much interest in the things you normally would, you may benefit from pushing yourself anyway. Get some exercise, go outside when the sun is shining (to increase vitamin D), make plans with friends and family, etc. At first it may just feel like you are faking it and going through the motions, but eventually doing these activities may bring you back around. If not, it would be wise to make an appointment with your doctor for some blood work and to see a counselor. If you don’t want to wait, there is no harm in taking these actions right away. I hope you feel better soon.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts