I’m sorry that things have been so painful for you for so long. There is a chance that you could be depressed, but you have good reason to be. It is important that you find some help and support somewhere. If you have tried talking with your parents about your struggles and they laugh at you, it is time to find another trusted adult who you can confide in. Please consider speaking with a teacher, your school counselor or nurse, your doctor, an adult friend of the family, or another family member. I’m not sure what your relationship is with your biological father but can you speak to him about your home situation and how miserable you feel? Hopefully someone can help you get in touch with a mental health professional, but you also might be able to do this on your own. In our country, teens of a certain age can seek some counseling even without parent permission.
I also think you need to try harder to make friends and reach out to them. Don’t worry so much about being judged or not understood. Everyone has problems and needs support. Maybe if you extend trust to someone, they will in turn confide in you as well. But also, don’t let one or two broken friendships keep you from trying again. Teenage relationships can be very fluid… so your best bet is to learn to ride the waves rather than just give up.
You’ve been through a lot of stressful things and I hope that you find some support soon. Things will get better and you will eventually be able to choose your own living situation as well as who you spend time with. In the meantime, reach out and do your best to surround yourself with positive people.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts