You should speak to the school counselor about this issue. You have nothing to fear. Counselors don’t judge people. It is their job to help people. They spend years rigorously training to help people who are having problems just like yours. They can help you if you ask.
You are concerned that the counselors will see you as simply a “moody teenager.” You seem to be worried that you will not be taken seriously. I don’t think that will happen. Moody teenagers don’t engage in self-harm or have suicidal thoughts and counselors know this. They can’t help you if you don’t tell them what’s wrong.
As soon as you have the opportunity, speak to your school counselor. Tell him or her about what you wrote in this letter. If it’s easier, take this letter with you. It might help the counselor begin to understand how you are feeling. I hope that you will take my advice and realize that you have nothing to fear. Help is available but you have to be willing to ask for it, to receive it. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle