Your symptoms may or may not be indicative of schizophrenia. You described not feeling anger. Anger might be a common human emotion, but it’s not necessarily a healthy one. Some people rarely feel anger. That doesn’t make them emotionally flat; it makes them emotionally stable.
You also mentioned your difficulty with expressing love. Perhaps it’s because you’re shy or because you haven’t met someone whom you feel is worthy of your love. That’s just one explanation and there may be others.
Your reclusiveness is a concern, but how are you defining reclusiveness? Your definition of reclusiveness may be different than mine.
You also described feeling paranoid. The episode you described is unusual and warrants an evaluation.
You may or may not have schizophrenia. Your symptoms warrant a closer look. It’s impossible to provide a diagnosis over the Internet. It’s good that you are planning to be evaluated. The evaluator can gather a thorough psychosocial history and determine if you have a mental illness. The evaluator will also likely make a recommendation for treatment, if they feel it is warranted. I wish you the best of luck. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle