You’re obviously suffering. Your symptoms are concerning and require treatment from a mental health professional.
Self-harm is a maladaptive response to psychological pain. Some people use it as a way to cope with their emotional problems. Others do it because they feel like no one is listening to them or they feel powerless to change. Self-harm can make you feel as though you have some level of control over your emotional pain but that is an illusion. There is nothing to be gained from self-harm.
I would encourage you to speak to your parents again about what’s wrong. It might help if they knew that you wrote to me about these issues. It might help them to see that you are serious about wanting help, and that you’re not attempting to be “shocking.” Ask them to take you to see a mental health professional. Therapy could be greatly beneficial for you. Medication might help as well.
If your parents are not taking you seriously, then speak to a school counselor or faculty member, or perhaps another family member about getting help. The sooner that you receive help, the better you will feel. If you ask for help, you have every reason to believe that you will improve. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle