Thank you for writing. This sounds very, very hard. You and I both know that whatever is going on with you is very, very complicated. You’ve made some reasonable guesses, but it is unlikely that you have all those diagnoses. Although I understand that naming what is wrong may be comforting, it isn’t by itself necessarily going to help you feel better. I think it would be more helpful at this point for you to see a mental health professional to narrow things down and to develop a treatment plan. You don’t have to live with all this confusion, depression and pain.
Taking the quizzes and writing to us here at PsychCentral is a courageous and important start. I hope you will go the next step and find a therapist to help you heal. If you want to jump start your therapy, you could bring your letter and this response with you to the first session.
I wish you well.