A: You are describing a classic case of caretaker fatigue and stretching yourself too thin. It sounds like you know what you need to do, you just need a push to help you do it. If you “give it all away” you won’t have anything left for yourself, and then you also end up with nothing left to give others.
It is time to put yourself first and make some life changes quickly. I would suggest that you get back in therapy immediately and possibly be evaluated for medication as well. I would also suggest that you find a way to cut back on your responsibilities. There is no shame in knowing your limits and knowing when you have reached them. It may be that going to school full-time and working full-time in such a draining field is just too much. Go to part-time in one of these areas and find a way to build in time for exercise and self-care. Extending your goals is a much better option than not achieving them at all because you burned yourself out.
You’ve been through a lot already and have overcome many obstacles. Tap into this strength and wisdom to help you make the changes you need to make so that you can feel good about yourself again and all that you have accomplished.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts