A: Sadness is only one symptom of depression, and to clarify, sadness is a normal emotion that everyone can feel while depression is a clinical disorder that can be treated. The fact that you think about killing yourself so regularly is a serious problem that you need to get help for. In addition to thoughts of suicide (and homicide) you isolate yourself from others, cry, feel angry and hopeless … which are all signs of depression.
Teenage hormonal fluctuations can certainly play a large role in affecting mood but what you are describing here seems more serious than that. I suggest that you speak to your parents immediately and be very honest. You could show them your letter and my response if you are having difficulties expressing yourself. Teenage suicide happens way too frequently, and I don’t want you to be another victim. Please get help from a mental health professional. Your school counselor, doctor or your medical insurance provider can help you find a therapist and/or psychiatrist.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts