I am sorry about the death of your cousin. It can be very difficult to deal with the loss of a loved one. Your cousin’s death is likely contributing to your emerging symptoms. You said that you already have underlying issues of anxiety and this incident might be making it worse. It might be a temporary reaction to a difficult situation.
You don’t have health insurance or the money to consult a mental health professional but many communities offer free mental health services. Call your local community mental health center and ask what services may be available to you. They might be able to provide you with assistance. You can also call your local health department and ask about free or low-cost services. Another possible avenue of treatment might be through your employer. Many employers offer short-term counseling to their employees.
Many people with anxiety disorders have a fear of developing schizophrenia. It’s a common fear, but it is unlikely to happen. Schizophrenia is relatively rare and only occurs in one to two percent of the population.
Untreated anxiety can significantly interfere with your life. It makes day-to-day functioning unpleasant, but it is highly treatable with both medication and therapy. Strongly consider calling your local community mental health center or health department to inquire about what services may be available to you. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle