It seems as though you’re feeling highly stressed by those around you. It also seems as though you have a good sense of your limits (i.e. how much you can tolerate). It’s good to know your limits.
Without more precise information about the nature of these interactions, it’s difficult for me to provide specific advice. Generally speaking, you should avoid people who make you highly stressed and could bring you to your breaking point. You can’t force someone to listen to you or to understand you. If you’ve tried and tried often, to the best of your ability, to explain your position to them and nothing changes, then stop trying; you’ve done all you can.
Conversely, even though you feel highly stressed by certain people, it does not mean that your reaction is warranted. Whether your reaction is an overreaction or the appropriate reaction is best determined by an objective third-party.
My recommendation is to consult a mental health professional who could assist you in handling your situation. In the meantime, it’s advisable to keep your distance from the people who are causing you to become upset. The fact that you are now living in “survival mode” means that your breaking point is possibly near and you might act out of aggressively either towards yourself or others.
This situation is resolvable, but I believe it requires the assistance of a mental health professional. I would advise you to make an appointment immediately. Don’t hesitate to call 911 or go to the emergency room if you feel as though you might harm yourself or someone else. Please stay safe and take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle