From India: I had posted about the issues I am having with my OCDiac BF and the therapist answered me to end this relationship which has become an emotional abuse for me. But being in a relationship for an year, it was hard for me to forget him at once and start a new life.
I somehow tried with all the love I have for him to make him understand that relationships dont work that way and he can’t control me, he also agreed to some extent and started changing his behaviour. His panic attacks decreased . Being in India parents are desparate to get their daughter married if she is sitting idle at home . He did not want to see me getting married to someone else just because I was idle ,so he allowed me to take up a new job. He is at his home in other city waiting for his admission test to happen and join college. When he gets admission he will move to my city. While he is idle at his home , he wants me to be there when he wakes up to wake him like a wife but on phone, stay on call when I leave for office and staying on call whenever he calls whether I in middle of a meeting , previously it was a 24 x 7 affair being on call whereever I go including washrooms too. Now he says that he wont be on call 24×7 but he requested me pick up his call whenever he calls as he needs me and my support whenever he gets OCD attacks .
Recently I got to know that I am stuck in legal case filed by the company I worked with and from where he made me resign abruptly and I owe that company some money due to non-fullfilment of the contract. They told me that they’ll be dispatching a legal notice soon for the recovery of that money . It made me upset, I told him about the same and I told him I’ll take care of it all I am worried about is the legal thing because my parents would scold me to death for this and I can’t tell them I had to leave this job because of my boyfriend , they dont know about this relationship.
He panicked , shouted on call , used foul language . I am all broken again. I am on anti depressants . His family members call me , I dont pick . I am having suicidal attacks and I want to disappear from this world . I am extremely depressed . I love this guy , I want him to be a normal guy whom I can get married to and have kids with, we had planned a lot. But everything has gone wrong .
I am lost , please help.