A: I’m sorry you are hurting so much. I agree that you need help and you need to get help soon. You cannot afford to wait until you have insurance coverage. There are several options available to you.
You could seek help from someone in private practice and be a self-pay client. Many therapists offer discounts for cash-paying clients. You could also research what your health insurance will be once it kicks in and find a therapist who accepts that insurance, knowing that your insurance will start covering it in a few months. You can go to the website for that insurance and look up approved providers or you can use PsychCentral or Psychology Today “find a therapist” links and look for a therapist with the specialties and the insurance you prefer.
Most communities also have community mental health centers that offer free or discounted services. I did a quick search in your area and here is an example of one link to check out: http://solutions-foundation.org/resources/mental-health.html
Finally, if you are feeling suicidal again just go to your local emergency room. If you get admitted and treated, the social workers at the hospital will help you find follow-up care. In the meantime, this site also has online support groups and you can check out some in your community. Being around others with similar struggles can be very helpful.
You have tried to handle things on your own for too long. It is time to get some professional help. It can, and will, get better.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts