A: Thank you for writing in with your question. You are listing some very serious issues and I’m glad you realize that you need some help. The fact that you have done things to harm yourself, report having hallucinations, and still feel suicidal, suggest that you need to find a mental health professional quickly. If you are currently suicidal, I would suggest that you either go to a local hospital emergency room or call the Suicide Hotline for advice.
Because of your age, your parents will have to be involved in your treatment. They have to sign consent forms and will most likely be financially responsible. However, they do not have to be included in every session. Most therapists who work with teenagers include the parents in part of the treatment but also spend time alone with you. You can request to speak to the therapist alone as often as you like.
If for some reason you just can’t bring yourself to speak to your parents directly about needing help, you could speak to another trusted adult, such as a teacher, the school counselor, your doctor, a church leader or another family member. The important thing is to ask for help soon. I’m sorry you have been feeling so badly. No one “deserves” to suffer like this. With help, you can be feeling better soon, and, you don’t have to do it alone.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts