Not sure if my latest issue with my driving phobia was due to effexor withdrawl, PTSD, or freaking out about nothing
A year ago I got into a very bad car accident with my son where we both were hospitalized due to injuries. I have been trying to get over this car accident for quite awhile and have developed PTSD and my anxiety has worsened. I had to go back unto my antidepressants due the issues I had. I also have had problems driving because I am scared to get in another accident or cause myself or somebody else to die. Just a few months ago I started feeling a lot better and I was able to actually drive with too many problems. I wanted to get off my antidepressants to see how I handled it and because I wanted to get pregnant with my third child. My doctor at first said let’s wait until spring and then when spring came around he gave me a prescription for 6 more months. I was pretty unhappy and since I don’t have insurance to see another doctor I decided to wean myself off it. My former doctor that I had with insurance said to take my medication, Effexor 150 mg every two days for a week, then every three days for a week, and so on until I was off it. I started doing this since I didn’t have a prescription for the lower doses of Effexor. So the other day I decided to go out and drive to the grocery store. I felt fine and so as I was driving I saw two men standing on the sidewalk. They looked like they were standing there and not ready to cross the street. As I started getting closer, they all of a sudden started walking across the street. I looked over and saw a car waiting for them to cross. I wondered why they were crossing the street and I didn’t stop. Then, as I got even closer to them they stopped realizing I wasn’t going to stop for them. I realized after going past them it was a crosswalk but I couldn’t tell due to the faded paint and since many other people just jaywalked around that area and yielded to oncoming traffic. I didn’t want to hurt them but I felt like I was frozen due to the shock of them deciding to cross and not yield to me and could not put my foot on the brake. I have been upset about this for awhile and unsure what to do about it. I am afraid what would have happened if I had hit them. My husband says that I have been worried about this situation too long and it is not normal. I want to move on with my life and do the things I want to. I can’t have more children with Effexor and I don’t know how much it has helped me overcome my fear of driving. I don’t have insurance to go to a counselor and I feel like I am stuck. I have no idea if this latest issue with driving was because of an effexor withdrawal, PTSD, or it wasn’t that major of an issue. I just don’t know what steps I should take in order to move on with my life. My anxiety and driving phobia has made me feel like a recluse and that I don’t feel like I am progressing in life.