You are assuming that you are wholly the cause of the problem, but that may not be true. Have you considered that your husband may be part of the problem? He may not be, but all possibilities must be considered. It is important to know the truth.
I think you would benefit from psychotherapy for two main reasons. The first reason is because it’s important to determine if you are being overly sensitive and defensive or if your husband is being overly critical. A therapist could help to make that objective determination.
The second reason therapy could be beneficial is because you may be developing depression. As you said, it’s getting more difficult for you to be happy. Your depression is deepening every day. This is a sign that something must be done. Action must be taken. A few sessions with a therapist may be all that is needed. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle