I take you at your word when you say that your symptoms are serious. I also believe you when you say that you have suicidal thoughts and can’t stop yourself from engaging in self-harm. Suicidal thoughts should always be taken seriously. If you can’t keep yourself safe, then you should seek emergency assistance.
Feeling unsupported by your parents complicates this matter. It leaves you with fewer options in terms of seeking treatment.
The next logical question is how do you physically get yourself to the hospital? Ideally, you should tell your parents and ask them to take you. You said that your parents believe that teenagers who claim to be depressed are attention seekers but have you told them about your personal symptoms? They might make dismissive comments about other people’s situations, but they may have a different reaction if they knew a member of their own family were in trouble.
It is best not to make assumptions about what your parents may or may not do because you could be wrong. If you haven’t told them, then you haven’t given them a fair chance to react. I strongly encourage asking your parents for their help.
If you tell them and they refuse to help you, then the next step is to consult the school counselor or an adult you trust. If you still have nowhere to turn, then take yourself to the hospital or call 911. Do whatever is necessary to keep yourself safe.
Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle