I deeply appreciate the courage it takes to write us. This is a safe place for you to discuss this issue. I would certainly stay with your counselor for now, but supplement this in three ways. First I would join the forums here at PsychCentral as a way of developing a communication and support network. Here is a link for you to try.
Secondly, every state has a hotline that can be called anonymously, and the counselors there a very well-trained. You can learn more about your options by talking to them anonymously, yet directly. You can get more information about this here.
Finally, believe it or not, you can talk to your counselor about the difficulty of talking to your counselor. You can explain the struggle to him or her and together come up with a plan. You wouldn’t be the first teenager caught in this dilemma. If you explain that you feel at this time this will make things worse, not better, the school counselor will be able to help.