Thank you for sending us your email. I deeply appreciate the description of your journey. And I think your physician will, too. He is in the best position to help because he knows your history, understands the meds and, as a professional, knows the course the process of healing can take.
It might seem hard to believe but the embarrassment and hesitation to talk to him may actually be part of the depression that has set back in. The part of you that found the courage to send this letter is the part that you believe in — and your physician believes it.
If it is too difficult to do on your own, ask a friend or family member to go with you. This may help cushion the initial meeting.
But if this still isn’t okay you can bring your concerns to a new psychiatrist. Explain your history, the measures taken, and where you are at now, and he or she should be able to help.