It has been tough for both you and your mother. I am so sorry for what you’re experiencing.
Understandably, it’s difficult for you to feel happiness when you’re seeing your mother crying. Her depression is probably influencing your feelings.
You said that it is your main priority to relieve your mother’s depression. That is important but your difficulty eating is something that needs to be corrected and the sooner the better. You obviously care about your mother, but you haven’t been trained to treat depression. You should suggest that she seek professional help and support her in doing so, but that is where your power ends.
Mental health professionals are in the best position to assist your mother in overcoming her depression and to help you with your eating problem. They are professionally trained to deal with these very issues.
I would recommend that you speak to a school guidance counselor. Inform them about the problems in your family. The guidance counselor can assist you and perhaps your mother in receiving the proper mental health treatment.
I know things are hard now, but with the proper help your life will improve. Speaking to the school guidance counselor is the best first step in dealing with these problems. I hope that my advice has been helpful. Please don’t hesitate to write again.
Dr. Kristina Randle