I will try & make this as short as I can. I have an old friend who is deeply in love with me, I would describe him as the perfect guy who loves me beyond words. I know he would do anything for me & for him I am the one. I have a deep love for him, he is my best friend & means the world to me. I do love him & for me he is my safe choice. I know he wouldnt hurt me. Due to things in life we were unable to be together but planned on it when we could. In the meantime I met someone else and fell in love with right away. It’s one of those relationships that start out way to fast & crash & burn. We break up and than go back to each other. We ended things and I got with the 1st guy. I do want to spend my life with him when we can, but at the moment my heart can’t let go of the other man. I recently told him I wasn’t happy & ended things, we’ve had no contact in a few days and now Im missing him and want to reach out to him. I even miss the fighting. I NEVER have fought with the first guy. Im perfect in his eyes. I feel so guilty for loving both of these men. I know the 2nd is no good for me & yet I still love him. I don’t know what to do. PLEASE HELP!
Sorry to bust your bubble on this – but to be in love with two men is to be in love with neither. While it looks like a tug of war between the two, it is likely to be more of a struggle you are having with intimacy.
Look at the glowing terms with which you describe your old friend. Perfect; loves you beyond words; you’d do anything for each other; best friend; safe. Now look at the words to describe the other guy: Crash and burn; when you can; fighting; guilty; no good for me. Man. Not even close. If the first guy was so perfect why would there be room for the second so-so one? If the first one is really everything you said, then how could you “fall in love” with the second? When people are truly in love it is like an inoculation against outside interference.
My best guess is that the old friend stirred you very deeply, perhaps very real feelings of intimacy that upset you. The second man is a spoiler – used to sabotage the feelings for your old friend. I don’t think the question is: “How can you love two men?” Rather: “Why did the relationship with my old friend cause me to want to sabotage it?”
Dan Tomasulo Ph.D., TEP, MFA, MAPP teaches Positive Psychology in the graduate program of Counseling and Clinical Psychology at Columbia University, Teachers College and works with Martin Seligman, the Father of Positive Psychology in the Masters of Applied Positive Psychology (MAPP) program at the University of Pennsylvania. He is Director of the New York Certification in Positive Psychology for the Open Center in New York City and on faculty at New Jersey City University. Sharecare has honored him as one of the top 10 online influencers on the topic of depression. For more information go to: http://www.dare2behappy.com/. He also writes for Psych Central's Ask the Therapist column and the Proof Positive blog.
APA Reference Tomasulo, D. (2018). In Love with 2 Men & Confused. Psych Central.
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