I find your letter to be very insightful. You attempted to deal with your grief by engaging in healthy activities such as writing, painting, exercise, coloring and reading. The fact that you attempted to utilize healthy coping methods is a sign of your resourcefulness, resiliency and intellect.
You’ve been facing a difficult set of circumstances. You could greatly benefit from grief counseling. Grief counseling can be done in individual therapy sessions but some people prefer group therapy. They like to connect with others who are experiencing a similar set of circumstances. There may be a bereavement support group in your community. Try contacting local hospitals, hospices or even funeral homes about local bereavement support groups.
I would also encourage you to tell your parents about how you have been feeling. It’s important to inform them about your struggles. They can assist you in finding a mental health professional who specializes in grief counseling. It’s normal to experience grief after a loss; however, you are clearly struggling. A mental health professional who specializes in grief can help you to work through your intense emotions. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle