I’m sorry about your unhappiness. It seems as though you might have depression. Depression can erroneously make you feel as though life is not worth living. It clouds judgment. It can make you believe in things that are not true and thus come to conclusions that are not true. I think this may have happened in your case. Life has been difficult for you which has led you to incorrectly conclude that you are destined to live a worthless, unhappy life. That’s simply not the case. Nothing could be further from the truth.
Counseling is what is needed in this situation. I have worked with many people who felt the same way as you do and with counseling their lives improved significantly. I would highly recommend it for you.
Inform your parents about how you’ve been feeling. Ask them to assist you in finding the right therapist. There’s no reason for you to continue to suffer and to believe in things that are not true when help is available. The type of problems that you are facing are the type of problems that therapists deal with on a regular basis. It’s imperative that you finally receive the right help to overcome these life difficulties. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle