It’s a shame that your mother has such old-fashioned ideas about therapy. People go for therapy for many reasons. Sometimes they are dealing with a mental illness. Sometimes they want support to cope with a challenging situation. Sometimes they don’t want to burden or burn out family and friends so they talk to a therapist instead. And sometimes people go to a therapist for personal growth. Talking with someone who can provide perspective and experience can often be useful.
Depression isn’t something you can talk yourself out of. But you can take some steps to help yourself.
First: Make sure you are taking good care of yourself. Often what looks like depression is a result of poor sleep habits, lack of enough physical exercise or poor food choices. To some extent, our moods are a reflection or how we care for our body.
2) You can use a book to coach you. Two books that some of my clients have found particularly useful are:
“The Depression Workbook: A Guide for Living with Depression and Manic Depression,” by Mary Ellen Copeland and Matthew McKay and “Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy” by David D. Burns, M.D.
3) You could join the depression support group on PsychCentral. People like yourself share what is working for them and offer each other support.
4) The Depression and Bipolar Alliance website has a support group locator on it. Try this link: http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=peer_landing
Those are a few places to start. But I also hope you can stand up for yourself with your mother. At 24, you have a right to make your own decisions about what is good for you. Since you are disabled, I’m guessing that you have some health insurance to help you pay for therapy. I hope you will also eventually see a therapist if you continue to suffer in spite of your efforts to take care of yourself.
I wish you well.