I’m sorry that you are struggling. It’s clear that you want help, especially because of your expressed desire to be a good father to your young daughter. Children need good parenting.
Your symptoms are unusual and concerning. My recommendation is to be evaluated by a mental health professional. You feel that “no one will listen” but a mental health professional will listen and provide treatment for your symptoms.
How can you find a mental health professional? There are multiple ways to do this. One way is to ask your primary care physician for a referral. Another way is to contact your local community mental health center and make an appointment for an evaluation. You can also contact your health insurance company and ask what services they recommend.
Typically, you will first meet with an intake clinician who will gather information about your symptoms and your psychosocial history. Next, you will meet with a mental health professional who will evaluate your symptoms and make recommendations for treatment. The treatment recommendations may include consulting a psychiatrist for medication. Both psychotherapy and medication could greatly assist you in reducing your symptoms and stabilizing your mood.
One of the many advantages of seeing a mental health professional is to gain a trained and objective perspective about your symptoms. They can also provide expert guidance and social and emotional support. I hope you follow my recommendation to seek treatment. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle