It would be premature to suggest that you are experiencing hallucinations which are associated with psychotic disorders. It may be that this separation has been traumatizing and these images are associated with that trauma. It is also important to rule out other possibilities such as illicit substance use or sleep deprivation. To know what may be happening, I would need to collect much more information about these experiences.
Your experiences are unusual and require investigation. I would recommend having a medical evaluation and a mental health evaluation. You were not able to afford your ex-therapist but there may be free or low-cost mental health services in your new community. Check with the local health department or your community mental health center to determine what services are available.
Finally, it would be advantageous to document when these experiences occur. Do they happen in the middle of the night or when you’re having trouble sleeping or when you’re having a particularly stressful day? You might begin to see a pattern. Documenting this information would also assist a mental health professional in determining what may be causing these experiences. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle
Mental Health & Criminal Justice Blog