I’m sorry that you’re suffering. The fact that you believe “no one likes you” might be a sign of depression. You are convinced that other people don’t like you but you may be wrong. People with depression often misjudge reality. In the absence of any objective evidence, individuals with low self-esteem often believe that other people perceive them as being unlikeable or a “loser.” That type of faulty thinking leads to inaccurate conclusions.
Anxiety also seems to be an issue for you. You don’t like to go outside. When you do, you “shake and sweat,” your heart beats rapidly and you can’t breathe. You may be experiencing a panic attack. People have panic attacks when their anxiety has become out of control. In general, people suffer tremendously when their psychological symptoms are not well controlled.
It’s also concerning that you have suicidal thoughts. You’re prepared to overdose on a moment’s notice and are constantly fantasizing about dying. Those are worrying signs and clear evidence that professional help is required.
When an individual has difficulty seeing reality clearly, then it is in his or her best interest to seek the help of a trained professional who can correct their view of reality. Psychotherapy could be immensely beneficial to you. Anxiety disorders are highly treatable, as is depression. Medication might help, especially with your anxiety symptoms. You deserve to live a psychologically symptom-free life but you first must be willing to seek the appropriate professional help. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle
Mental Health & Criminal Justice Blog