You thought you’d be a famous musician but you aren’t practicing or playing out? Huh? Talent isn’t enough. Becoming famous at anything takes about 10,000 hours of practice and a fair amount of luck. People who make it are those who would play in a closet entertaining the coat hangers if that was the only venue they could get.
You won’t find a gig or a job in your room. It’s time to get out there. Find a group of young people who want to play out and start getting together to practice several evenings a week in someone’s garage. Yeah – I’m serious. Make a garage band. That’s how most people get started. Advertise in your local paper for the drummer or bass player or whatever you need and get going. If you get good enough, you can start offering to play out for a “pass the hat” in order to get some attention. Then see how it goes. Lightning might strike and you and your band might get discovered but worst case you’ll have some fun and make some friends and contacts.
As far as employment: Haven’t you heard? Volunteering is a way to build your resume and to get the attention of people who can help you find a job. If you can’t make money right now, you can at least get yourself some skills and develop some connections. Volunteer to teach kids your instrument at your local community center, start a gaming club for troubled teens, work at the local food pantry. While you are there, be an active, enthusiastic member of the team. Let people know that you also need paid work and it might evolve into a job. Even if it doesn’t you’ll have more to put on your resume that a high school diploma and a high score on a video game.
I agree that you are in no way ready for college. But while you are volunteering and working on your band, you could benefit from taking a course or two at your local community college. Consider taking a class in arts management, or songwriting, or music 101. You will be helping that resume and you’ll be meeting people your own age. It will also help you decide if you want to further your education.
Bottom line? Stop the self-pity party and get going – especially if you don’t feel like it. If you don’t do some things differently, nothing is going to be different.
I wish you well.