I’m so glad to hear that you contacted your psychiatrist and have begun treatment again. I very much appreciate you writing back and letting me know how you’re doing. Thank you.
Please never feel that you are bothering me. I am glad to help you.
Your symptoms are obviously distressing but they are not your fault. No one would willingly choose to experience what you are experiencing. Those thoughts and images are essentially your brain playing tricks on you. It’s unfair, unpleasant, and frightening, and I’m sorry that this is happening to you. It will stop. It does take time. Be patient but also carefully monitor the suicidal thoughts that are occurring. If you feel that you might attempt suicide, you should call 911 or go to the emergency room. Keep your doctor informed about every change in your thinking.
You were wise to inform your doctor about your ongoing symptoms. Don’t feel like you’re a bother to your doctor. You are not. If you are a bother to your doctor, then she should find a new occupation. No good therapist would ever be upset with your providing the very information that they need to do their very best work. She needs you to keep her informed or she simply cannot do her job. What I am trying to say is you are being a responsible client. Without your self-reporting, she would not know how you are doing. As she noted, it may take time for the medication to “kick in.” Alternatively, your ongoing symptoms may be a sign that a dosage adjustment is needed. It’s important that you continue to inform her about your symptoms. It helps her to know whether your medication needs adjustment.
You may also want to consider the addition of psychotherapy. A therapist could help you to stay grounded in reality. For instance, he or she could help you to distinguish between what is real and what is not, teach you strategies for dealing with distressing hallucinations, voices, paranoia, and suicidal thoughts. During any distressing time, it’s important to surround yourself with a great deal of support. The more support you have, the better you will feel.
Thanks again for writing to let me know how you’re doing. Please consider writing back to keep me posted on your progress. I wish you continued success. Please take care.