I don’t know what’s wrong with me, from the age or 12 I have been unhappy, I was bullied as a child and have had weight issues all my life. But I don’t blame that, I just don’t know what’s wrong with me! I have had suicidal thoughts since I was 13, I have attempted a few times and self harmed since I was 13. I have mood swings where one minute I’m happy and the next I just don’t feel like living, the unhappy moods are so much more frequent. I have been in a relationship for the past 3 years and 7 months. I love him more than anything, when we were dirt together I was so happy! But in the past year and a half I’ve been just so unhappy. My boyfriend means well and I know he loves me, but I’m always worried and anxious he’s going to leave me. I don’t know how to explain really in so many little words. Basically I always feel unhappy I could say depressed, coz I have suicidal thoughts, self-harming is the only way I feel like I can release my anger. I have tried stopping for my boyfriend but I’ve had a few hiccups, I know he hates it. I’m always anxious about everything, my family, boyfriend. Mainly friends and boyfriend. I just need help because I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t have anything to be unhappy about, really. I don’t know if I need professional help. I’ve tried speaking to a doctor befOre but she wanted to tell my parents and I was only 15 at the time and I didn’t want to put more pain on them than I already had, ( my mum is disabled and she will live past age 60) and I love my parents more than anything. Im having a crap time with my boyforend ATM but I can’t seem to let him go even though he doesn’t treat me how I want to be treated. Please can you help me. I don’t want to seem like a whinny teenager because I know there are people out there with so much worse problems than mine, Im probably wasting your time, just if you have 2 mins to spear, please help me.