I appreciate the difficulty you are having and am very glad you thought to take the tests we have online. The online tests have their strengths and weaknesses. What we do know is that you are feeling out of sorts, and that is enough to make worthwhile a visit with a therapist. The therapist either will have, or will know someone who has measurement tests that can be specific and valid about what your personality and behavioral traits look like. A chance to sit one-to-one with someone is a good place to start.
Thank you for having the courage to ask this question.