I do not believe that talking to yourself, in the context that you have described, is necessarily “abnormal” or “crazy.” It is something that you have done all your life. It provides emotional and psychological relief. You only engage in the behavior when you are alone. It seems to be a behavior that you can control. When you realized that it was considered abnormal by others you immediately stopped. The behavior is not harming you and it is not harming others.
I would characterize your behavior as a habit. From my perspective, it’s only a problem if you consider it to be troublesome or if it is harming you. If it is a habit that you would like to stop, then you may want to consult a therapist. A therapist could explore the utility of such a behavior and assist you in the development of replacement behaviors.
Much of what you do is not too different from that done by many others, who have these conversations but do so silently, in their minds. You have probably heard the expression “talking out loud.” I think that when people say “talking out loud,” they mean I am vocalizing my internal thought process or dialogue. Please take care.
Post Updated: October 2018