I am very sorry for what you are enduring. You are frightened for your safety in your own home. You cannot protect yourself. I would strongly encourage you to call and report your situation to the Child and Youth Services in your state. The telephone number is 800-252-2873. Report to them what you have experienced. Be as detailed as possible.
If you feel that you might harm yourself, then call 911. You should also have in your possession the phone number to the National Suicide Prevention Helpline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
Another option is to inform a faculty member at your school about your situation. School officials who become aware of your situation are mandated by law to call child protective services.
It is imperative that you report your situation to the proper authorities. You need help. I know that asking for help may be difficult and frightening but it is important that you do it anyway. No child should have to experience what you have described. Call for help immediately.
Dr. Kristina Randle