I do not believe that laziness is your problem. Nor is lack of motivation. You have the desire to complete your tasks but you struggle with the execution of those tasks. This may be more of a logistics problem rather than a psychological problem.
Part of the problem might also be medication related. Feeling a lack of motivation is a common side effect of some psychiatric medications. A medication adjustment might be needed.
Another possible explanation is that you never learned effective organizational skills. A simple solution to this problem might be learning new ways to manage and organize your work load. The good news is these skills can be learned.
I believe that your biggest obstacle may be your reluctance to ask for help. Your reluctance seems to be driven by your belief that you will be judged as lazy. That is faulty logic and it is likely preventing you from getting the proper help.
Your thinking needs to be in accordance with reality. The reality is as follows:
- you are not lazy;
- medication may be part of the problem;
- you may have never learned the necessary organizational skills to complete tasks in a timely manner; and
- the longer this problem continues, the more you will likely suffer.
The proper and most efficient response to this situation is to ask for help. I wish you the best of luck. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle