Quit. That is the first step in your recovery. While the need for money drove you to do what you didn’t want to do, you can’t simply turn it off. The same would be true if you spent your nights working in dance clubs for hours on end, then tried to function out in the world — you would find your sleep patterns would have changed, your ability to hear would have been diminished, and you would see the world through that lens.
In the cam world you are an object and the men are using you for their own pleasure. You get nothing out of the deal in terms of connection. The natural outcome is that you are no longer going to be able to be anything but an object to your man. It isn’t that you don’t trust him, it is that you don’t trust your own feelings toward him.
After you quit, give yourself time to decompress. You did what you needed to do to make ends meet; now do what you need to do to restore yourself.