Thank you for writing in for help. It sounds like your friends and family don’t yet see you for the bright and wonderful young woman you are, and that they aren’t supporting you in the way that you need to feel supported. What’s remarkable is that even without a lot of support at home, you have been able to keep your dreams and aspirations for your future alive! Let’s work together to find someone who does. I am not familiar with counseling options in India but I can give you a few suggestions.
I’m so glad that you brought up seeing a counselor to your mother. Even though she made your request about her failings as a parent, I suggest that you ask her again and let her know it’s really important to you. If she doesn’t respond to your request then I suggest you look into possible school or community resources for counseling. Does your school have a counselor that you could meet with or any kind of peer support groups? If not I suggest that you try online support groups. There are many groups in the PsychCentral.com Community.
It sounds like your mom is really scared to lose you, and that may be why she seems so protective of you. Fear is probably why she doesn’t want you to go away to school or to go somewhere unsafe. That is probably really hard for you because you are looking toward your future and wanting to continue to grow up, which means trying new things. I want to encourage you to continue to follow your educational and life dreams and do whatever you can to get a counselor to help you figure out how to make them happen.
Take good care of yourself!