Schizophrenia can be traumatizing. Some people with schizophrenia have no recollection of their symptoms. A possible explanation for this is that the traumatizing nature of schizophrenia leads the unconscious mind to block these memories and experiences.
Some individuals with schizophrenia refuse to discuss their symptoms. This avoidance might be explained by the fact that schizophrenia symptoms can be very frightening. Those willing to speak about their symptoms have described them as being a “living hell” or “hell on earth.”
Having said that, very effective treatments exist to treat schizophrenia symptoms. Individuals with schizophrenia can live high quality lives. Generally speaking, the best way an individual with schizophrenia can achieve stability is to consistently adhere to their treatment plan and to surround themselves with a strong support system.
It is common for individuals with schizophrenia to also have posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Studies have shown that many individuals with schizophrenia have a history of abuse or have endured some type of tragic event at some point in their lives. Those traumatic experiences could explain why schizophrenia and PTSD commonly co-occur.
It is difficult to know if you have a single disorder or a combination of disorders. I would encourage you to explore all possibilities with a psychiatrist. Having a psychiatric evaluation is the best way to have your questions answered. I would also encourage you to become more educated about PTSD and schizophrenia. The more that you know about these two conditions, the more clarity you might gain about your symptoms. I wish you the best. Please take care.