I’m sorry to hear that you have been struggling. It is very encouraging that you are in the process of finding a new therapist. You felt “stuck” with your former therapist. Changing therapists can make a major difference. You are already doing what I would’ve suggested that you do.
It is also good that you fired your psychiatrist. You did not believe that he was helping. You may want to consider seeing another psychiatrist but if you are not interested in medication, then maybe not.
You are in the process of changing therapists and it is very possible that this change will be quite beneficial. You may not need ECT, depending on the outcome of therapy.
ECT is usually the recommended treatment when other treatments have failed. I would suggest giving the new therapy a chance before making a decision about ECT. In the meantime, you should research ECT from every possible angle. Do as much research as you can. The following resources should help you get started:
The most common side effect associated with ECT is memory loss but that typically only occurs after many treatments. There are numerous myths about ECT and they are commonly based on fear and ignorance. ECT both looks and sounds frightening but many people have claimed that it has saved their lives.
I would encourage you to review its advantages and disadvantages. Do your research and let that include speaking with others who have undergone ECT. Withhold judgment and a final decision about ECT until you have completed your research. Only then will you be in a position to decide whether ECT is right for you.
I wish you the best of luck. Please take care.