It’s really hard for me to help you with a problem like this since I can’t sit down and really, really get to know you. There are a number of possibilities, of course. You may be very, very smart but still have a learning disability. You may have ADHD – which makes it hard to stay focused or to sit still. You might have an anxiety disorder. Or you might simply be mega-bored!
I think the thing to do is to ask to see the school psychologist if there is one. School psychologists are trained to do testing that helps determine how a person learns. If the school doesn’t have a professional on staff, you might ask your parents if they would help you find a psychologist to figure this all out. It’s important. Your high school years are ahead. With new information, the school could give you needed supports, or change your placement, or give you new options, etc. so that you can take full advantage of your classes.
What I would hate to see happen is for you to continue being as disengaged and discouraged as you are right now. If that keeps up, you’re going to be wasting the next four years instead of stretching that brain of yours.
I’m impressed that you wrote to us instead of just shutting down and doodling or something through the rest of the year. Follow up now and ask for the help you need to make your high school years all they can be – both academically and socially.
I wish you well.