Thank you for asking us. I am sorry you are having so much difficulty. I have 3 recommendations.
First, since you came off an antidepressant without the advice of your physician I would definitely reconnect and have this reevaluated by him or her. Sometimes individuals can do well for a time, but then life circumstances can cause a recurrence.The medicine obviously was working– so this would be the first step. If you can’t afford this please use the outpatient clinic at your local hospital. They will work with you on a sliding scale. This is very important. The medicine is likely to be the most immediate source of relief.
Secondly, I would recommend both individual and group therapy for coping with the depression and social anxiety. Research shows that the combination of psychotherapy and medicine is the best treatment for depression. Again, connect with your local hospital. You can also get information for groups in your area that are free of charge from the National Alliance on Mental Illness, NAMI.
And of course we have our Psych Central online support.
Finally I would encourage you to look into mindfulness meditation, or event Mindfulness Based Cognitive Therapy MBCT to help soothe yourself prior to going to bed.