I have been with my boyfriend for almost a year and things seemed to be going great until his friend, guy, came home and its like I don’t even know him anymore. Early in our relationship he gained my trust and I was able to tell him everything. He is my ultimate support system and whenever I have an issue I confide in him.
I have a family but most times I feel like an orphan. I have a mother who never put any of her kids first due to whatever man she was with at the time. I have a brother who has screwed me over and dug me into debt, using my name for several things like, getting a car. And I have a successful father who would rather se e me on the streets before he helps me. Although I’ve known my father all my life, he was never really around only financially, and mother and her mate at the time lived lavishly off of any money he gave us. Last but certainly not least is my amazing three-year-old son, which I was blessed with from a previous relationship. Unfortunately his father has not stepped up at all. He used to bounce in and out of my son’s life when he wanted to and never really did anything but make empty promises and say what he plans to do in the future that is.
This brings me back to my boyfriend, I have lived with him off and on, put never permanently I tend to go back home when things are normal, i.e. My mom let our gas and lights get cut off, even though I’m paying her rent. He helps me with everything, he drops my son of and he picks him up every day. He watches my son when I have pampering time; he lets me use his car to go back and forth to school (my mom totaled my car about a month ago). He does the usual like feed us and take us out. If there is ever a time when I’ve been in a jam, he’s helped me financially.
His family is like my replacement family. His mom invites me to all family gatherings, even if he can’t make it. His youngest sister does my hair. His oldest sister and me do must things together like going to the movies, or grocery shopping,etc. I am around his family at least 90% of the time, they actually helped me potty train my son. They’re really sweet and I’ve grown to feel like there the family I always wanted.
His friend just moved back into town, and It’s like I don’t even know him. We talk through out the day, I lay down with him every night and wake up with him every morning but there is still a disconnect. And I started to get suspicious of him. So one day when I was out with his sister, he calls me and when were done he says by but his phone never hung up. I then hear him telling his friend that they just past a woman he used to talk to, and how he should go back and talk to her. So we stop talking, I forgave him, and then we fell out again. I asked to use his phone in order to access my inbox, when I went to open my inbox, his was still opened and I came across a message where he said love you, and the woman replies, don’t tell me show me. I have seen this woman before at a family gathering. I’ve actually met her family because her family and my boyfriend’s family are old friends from generations ago. The family tries to say that they’re just friends 5yr friendship, and that this woman is into women, but from her actions I know that she wants more than friendship. He says there just friends and it meant nothing, it was more so a joke and nothing more.
Well its been a week since I left and him and told him that I needed some space. He still supports me financially, and watches my son when needed, but I don’t know what to do. I blocked his number for a few days so he text mostly and calls at least once a day. He is by far the best companion I’ve ever had. And I know that my previous relationships have made me more suspicious and very untrustworthy of people but my judgment isn’t completely blurred. I want to be with him but I don’t know. He called me yesterday and asked me if this was my way of letting him down easy. I don’t want him to think that were over but I don’t want him to think things are ok. Am I crazy for wanting to stay? Help please……