I am very sorry for the loss of your mother and for the other difficult experiences you’ve endured. You have been exposed to life circumstances that most people will never have to face. It must have been difficult and I hope that my answer helps you in some small way.
One of your specific questions is whether or not you are experiencing a relapse associated with dissociative identity disorder (DID) (the new name for multiple personality disorder). The answer is yes, it is a possibility. This is because you have begun to create “another group of people in your head.” It could be a sign of a relapse.
You “completely let go of” the other personalities approximately a year ago. What may have happened is that the treatment was helping to quiet the other personalities but they never fully went away. I am assuming you were in treatment because you mentioned seeing a psychiatrist.
If I were interviewing you in person I would want to know the following information:
- When you met with a psychiatrist about a year ago, did he or she provide medication?
- Are you still in treatment and if not, why?
- Has there been a recent change in your life or additional stressors?
I would be particularly interested in knowing the answer to the last question because a recent change or additional stressor could explain a possible reemergence of symptoms.
Some researchers who study DID speculate that the personalities develop as a result of trauma. The personalities are essentially a psychological defense system. As a form of psychological protection, their primary purpose is to deal with situations that the real “you” is not ready or able to deal with.
DID is treatable but it is a complex disorder. Ideally, you should seek treatment from a therapist who is specially trained to treat DID. Unfortunately, relative to more common disorders such as anxiety and depression, there are a limited number of mental health professionals who receive specialized training for the treatment of DID. This doesn’t mean that your situation is hopeless. In fact, quite the opposite is true. There are many qualified mental health professionals who are trained to deal with trauma and related issues. Many of the treatments for trauma may be very beneficial to you.
How should you handle the situation? You should seek treatment. You should try to search for a therapist who has treated individuals with DID or has experience treating individuals who have experienced trauma. Click the find help tab at the top of this page to locate a therapist in your community. I hope this helps. Please take care.