I’m sorry you are feeling so stressed. It is difficult to feel alone and overwhelmed. I believe that you could benefit from support, either from friends, trusted family members or from a therapist.
In addition, try engaging in extracurricular activities such as softball, soccer, dance, swimming, and so forth. Another idea is to do volunteer work or find a job. These activities may help you to meet new people. These activities can help you to feel less lonely and more energized.
The other challenge, as you have described, is that you may be showing signs of depression. The depression might inhibit your ability to be social. The more that you can force yourself to interact with people, the better you may feel. It may help to decrease your depression which ultimately may make it easier to be more social. I understand this may be difficult, because of your possible depression, but it is still worth trying.
On the other hand, if you feel that this is too difficult because of your depression then you should consider seeking mental health treatment.
With regard to friends, I understand your difficulty. As you said, you are not fond of the people who live close by and because of homeschooling, you have a limited selection of friends. I am wondering if this is part of the problem. Homeschooling limits the number of possible friends simply because you are interacting with fewer individuals than you might if you were attending public school. Perhaps you can speak to your parents about the possibility of going to public school. I am not certain whether this is an option for you but it is something to consider.
It is important that your parents know how you are feeling. They may be able to help either by making suggestions or by taking you to see a mental health professional. If you are interested in seeking mental health treatment with the assistance of your parents, please click find the help tab at the top of this page. I wish you well. Please take care.