To answer your question, I do believe that you may be overreacting. You listed several reasons for why your fear is likely unfounded. You seem to be very much focused on the most unlikely outcome and have ignored all of the other, more realistic possibilities. This makes your view of the situation unbalanced.
In the beginning of your letter you describe having intense periods of anxiety and worry. It would have been helpful to know more about these experiences such as:
- How long have these experiences been occurring?
- How long do they last?
- What are they prompted by?
Sometimes individuals with early signs of an anxiety disorder such as obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) can become fixated on a particular thought. An individual begins to believe and can become obsessed with ideas they fear are true. This may be what is happening in your situation. Your fear is causing severe distress and significantly disrupting your life.
I would suggest being evaluated by a therapist. It is abnormal to have intense periods of anxiety. As I mentioned earlier, you may be experiencing early signs of OCD or another type of anxiety disorder.
If you find yourself beginning to worry, try to analyze the reality of the situation. Focus on the facts. Analyze the evidence behind why you believe something to be true. Try to force yourself to be as logical as possible. Do not allow yourself to believe in ideas that are untrue, are not supported by facts or have no basis in reality. If you feel that the anxiety is becoming overwhelming try to distract yourself by watching TV, reading a book, calling a friend or engaging in some activity that helps you to relax. Do not try to avoid anxiety but when it arises realize that it will eventually subside.
Anxiety disorders are one of the most common mental health conditions. They can be treated effectively with therapy, specifically, cognitive behavioral therapy. Medication can be helpful as well. You can learn to control your anxiety. Click on the find help tab at the top of this page to locate a therapist in your community. I wish you well.