“Beauty, as defined by society at large, seemed to be only about who was best at looking like everyone else.”
— Lucy Grealy (Autobiography of a Face)
You are obviously very bright for a 12-year-old and I am very sorry your parents do not understand what you are feeling. I am not sure why this is, but it is time for you to get help. No one should be made to endure this without getting the services they need, particularly no one who is in the 6th grade.
Go to a trusted teacher, speech therapist, or guidance counselor in your school and ask them to help. Your parents need to realize they have a responsibility to help you and it sounds like they don’t understand how to do this. I would also call the hospital and the surgeon who did the surgery and get them involved. Hospitals typically have a social work department and the social worker can help you cope with your parents and perhaps find some therapy for you and your family.
Don’t lose your spirit, and, I might add, you do not hate people. Who do you think is on the other end of the Internet connection? What about the artists that created the anime you love so much? And what about us here? You don’t hate us, or else why would you ask us for help?
Lucy Grealy was a magnificent professor and highly influential professor of mine in a graduate school program. She wrote a book about her surgeries and distortions of her face. The book demonstrates the courage and character it took to cope with her disability.
Having a disability takes courage because you have to educate people about what you need, what you feel, and what is important to you. I know that if you are writing this letter at you have the courage to find your voice in the world.
Wishing you patience and peace,