“Shades of grey wherever I go
The more I find out the less I know
Black and white is how it should be
But shades of grey are the color I see.”
Thank you for asking. This is a tough one because it is hard to know what the therapist’s intentions are. But what is clear is that you have noticed a shift, and everything I know about therapy would indicate that speaking up about your concerns would be exactly the right thing to do.
Since you know that one of your primary issues is that you can’t read faces and nonverbal signs, this is a perfect situation for you to work on with the therapist. Since understanding subtle cues is the work at hand, your confusion and inhibition are grist for the mill in your therapy.
If it is too difficult to talk to him without a script, I recommend you write him a letter that you can read to him, or if that is too risky, hand it to him and ask him to read it at the beginning of the session. I often encourage people I work with in therapy to write letters to people they have difficulty speaking up to – including me, if necessary. This way you can compose your thoughts without the pressure of the moment, and bring the issue to light.
I think not saying what you feel will belabor your therapy and is likely to slow down the rate of your improvement. I would also let your therapist know that you struggled with finding a way to express this to him. If this all seems too difficult you could simply request he read your concerns posted here.
Grey is an important color to have in your emotional palette. Finding the courage to talk about this with your therapist is likely to be empowering all on its own.
Wishing you patience and peace,