I’m a recently married 44 year old male. I married this woman a year ago but we have been living together for 4 years. I consider her family, her children, and her grandchildren as my own. This is my concern; all her children live normal, successful lives except her daughter, whom just turned 25 and is the younger of her two brothers. She is a very attractive female, she is attends online-college, is independent, and she lives by herself. She follows the same routine; she has no friends, and spends every weekend at our house. She is very quiet, never talks at all she rather reminds me of a child. Her mother told me that she was diagnosed with manic-depressive but she has never shown any signs of mania, just depression from time to time. I asked her mother about maybe setting her up on a date but her mother told me no, she said her daughter has told her she is a virgin and doesn’t want to date anyone. I asked her mother why she is a virgin she said she doesn’t know but doesn’t like to ask her daughter too many questions. She said her daughter is smart but even as a child had issues socializing. Her teachers will call her mother daily because she refused to play with the other kids, this is partially the reason why they chose not to skip her to another grade.
I really want the best for her that’s why I’m writing but I feel bad about what I did. One afternoon she and I were home together. She was watching T.V. and she had on a baggy t-shirt and a pair of athletic shorts. I couldn’t help myself from looking at her in a way that I shouldn’t. She is much more attractive than her mother is, she had a beautiful natural look, and knowing that she is a virgin made me look at her in a sexual way. I stared at her for a long time and on other occasions as well. Again she and I were home together, she walked into the kitchen to get something to drink and I purposefully cornered her, I touched her inappropriately but she didn’t tell me to stop she sort of froze in a coward position and just looked away. I touched her a couple more times, her breast and vagina; I even took my hands and rubbed her clitoris, and she didn’t stop me. She backed away but she couldn’t go very far and I moved closer she started breathing heavily and I hugged her and kissed her neck she tensed up, and starting shaking a little than the phone ranged and I stopped. I need help; I don’t want to do what I have done. She is irresistible to me. The fact that she didn’t tell me to stop made me think that I could probably go further and get away with it, and because she didn’t tell me to stop makes me think that she wanted it. These thoughts keep going through my head. After that day, she didn’t come over for 2 weekends in a row, than she started coming over again but I noticed that she avoids being left in the house with me. There are still times when we are alone, and I find myself staring at her. I’m afraid I might take it a step further, how do I stop this? What should I do? I’ve never taken advantage of anybody I don’t know what makes her different, even if I’m really taking advantage of her. Will therapy help me? Because she didn’t say no or stop than I didn’t really do anything wrong, did I?