It’s very, very difficult to move when you’re a teen. Please don’t be so hard on yourself for taking it hard. What you may be describing is an adjustment disorder with some features of depression. At this point, you’ve also developed some sleep disorders that aren’t helping the situation any. It’s all interrelated. But having a label or two isn’t going to help you much. It doesn’t make the very real feelings of distress go away.
I think you need some help making the transition to your new town so that you can enjoy your high school years. I’m sorry that you think mental health professionals are judgmental. By both training and our own temperaments, we tend to be very patient and understanding. I hope you’ll give it a chance. You may also need some medical intervention to help with the migraines and sleep.
I really, really hope that you will find the inner strength to reach out to a school counselor or your doctor or some other trusted adult to help you find the professionals you need. Please don’t give up on your mom either. If you can’t talk to her about the adjustment problems yet, at least ask her to help you with the sleep problems and headaches. In the meantime, if you need someone to talk to you can contact the counselors at the Boys and Girls Town Warmline. Counselors there are available 24/7 to talk to kids like you who are struggling. Their number is 800-448-3000.
You made an important first step by writing to us here at Psych Central. I hope you will take the next step and ask for the help you need and deserve.
I wish you well.