Despite all your troubles, your letter shows you to be an articulate, sensitive guy who has a number of talents and interests. Life certainly hasn’t gone your way for much too long. Let’s see if some practical suggestions might give you a toehold so you can start to climb back up out of that hole.
You mentioned that you were in the military. The National Veterans Foundation has a Lifeline for American Vets. Call 888-777-4443. The mission of the NVF is to meet the information and referral needs of all U.S. veterans and their families. Give them a call. They do far more than pretend to care. At the very least, try to get some dental services for that tooth. Pain has a way of wearing a person down.
The VA also has an education and training hotline for vets like yourself who are having difficulty finding work and who may need to get more training or education. That number is 888-442-4551 or check out www.military.com to learn more about benefits available to you.
You are certainly not alone in your problems and you don’t have to figure everything out by yourself. There’s a depression support group and hotline at 800-826-3632 and there is an online support group for people who are struggling with depression here at Psych Central. To find a group, check out this address: http://forums.psychcentral.com/
Apparently your folks and friends did give you support for quite awhile. Perhaps they have gotten as tired of your situation as you have. But they may also still have some good advice for you that is worth a try. I encourage you to open your mind to that possibility. Doing it your way hasn’t worked out for you so maybe it’s time to try another approach or two or five!
You have a lot of options available to you before you need to even think about throwing in the towel. I hope you will follow up and give some of them a try.
I wish you well.