I strongly recommend that you be evaluated by a medical doctor. You may be experiencing panic attacks but it’s important to rule out a medical cause. I would advise you to talk to your parents about seeing a primary care doctor or a neurologist.
You should also be evaluated by a mental health professional. A mental health professional may be helpful in determining if you’re having panic attacks. If they are panic attacks, please know that it is a very treatable condition. This condition usually requires therapy in which you learn an alternative way to cope with anxiety. Therapy focuses on giving you the psychological, emotional and behavioral tools you’ll need to combat panic and anxiety. Some people also take medication as a form of treatment. It has been found to be helpful in decreasing panic attacks.
It seems as though you have been dealing with very difficult issues. You’ve mentioned that you were molested by your father, were addicted to drugs by age 14, engage in self-mutilation and are sexually active. All these aforementioned issues could be related to why you are experiencing panic attacks, if that is in fact what is occurring. Talk to your parents about being evaluated by a medical doctor as well as seeing a mental health professional. It’s important that you make contact with medical and mental health treatment professionals as soon as possible. If you’re not sure how to speak to your parents about these issues then bring them this letter. It explains your concerns. Good luck.