You have been struggling for the past few years with binge drinking, overeating, a lack of sleep and motivation, as well as stress. You also mentioned that your marriage is strained because of these issues. In addition, your husband was out of work. All of these issues had to have taken an emotional toll on the both of you.
It’s difficult to know what if any disorder you may have. It might just be that you are having a difficult time and there isn’t a diagnosis that would fit. Generally speaking you may meet the criteria for depression but you’d have to be evaluated by a trained mental health professional to know for sure.
While I understand that you are suffering I do not think you are that far away from getting your life back on track. In other words with effort on your part and the proper intervention you could start to feel better in the near future.
At this point your marriage is strained but as you said it’s mostly related to the issues you are dealing with. It seems that fundamentally you have a strong marriage. Having that solid relationship is important for your well-being. Without it you’d probably be feeling much worse.
You are twenty pounds overweight. Much of that is due to overeating and probably due to the wine you are drinking (alcohol is high in calories).
You have a job but you spend too much time surfing the Internet. You’re also not feeling very motivated to work, you’re overly stressed and you’re not attending to all of your daily chores. You mentioned that you are taking medication that does not seem to be working. Medication alone is often not a comprehensive treatment.
If you could afford it counseling could really be beneficial for you. I would advise against only seeing a psychiatrist. Usually psychiatrists only prescribe medication. This problem most likely requires some form of talk therapy intervention. You might benefit from cognitive-behavioral or cognitive therapy. A medication change might help but you should consider counseling in addition to the medicine. If you cannot afford counseling try a local community mental health center. They often have low priced or free counseling services. You should also consider a support group. There may be local support groups you could attend. Your local community mental health center might have support groups and if they don’t they could probably refer you to an agency that does. Some people also find that joining an online support group is helpful as well. Please consider one of these options.
Since you are already at the point where you feel that you are “out of control” I’d strongly encourage you to consider some form of professional assistance. This problem may be difficult to correct yourself. A therapist could work with you on gaining back your motivation. He or she can help you uncover why you are drinking and binge eating and teach you how to stop engaging in harmful behaviors. If you cannot afford a therapist call your local community mental health center or try to find a local support group. As I mentioned above, with help and effort on your part these problems are correctable.